Part Three . . . And beyond

Well, this is the third part of my trilogy story. (ha ha) I say three parts because it seems as though my salvation has worked out in three parts(but I'm sure God sees it as one). It's just easier for me to describe what the Lord has done in me as stages. Okay, so I'll start calling them stages for now on.

So, for those of you who know me, you probably remember when I worked in a pharmacy as a licensed technician. I worked in pharmacy for almost 10 years, and the stress just seemed to be piling up on me over the years. I really loved what I was doing and I felt that I was making a difference in this world (little did I know that only God can make a difference, we can only be obedient to his word.) So as the stress kept getting worse,the devil used it in me to give it to others; mainly my co-workers. I felt really bad with myself because I didn't want to treat others that way; it just seemed to happen without me realizing it. And when I did realize it I felt extremely condemned. It finally got to the point where my boss was having a hard time dealing with me, so she asked me to take a vacation and figure out what I was going to do. She said I need to stop all I was doing (my take of it was to stop being evil to people around me) and change the way I was. She also said that if I need to quit and get out of the profession she would understand.

Man I'll tell you, quitting was the last thing I wanted to do, but during my vacation I prayed and prayed for help but it never was real clear to me what to do. So the week flew by and my first day back at work didn't go any better than before. At the end of the day my boss and I sat down and she asked me if I had figured out what I was going to do (which I still hadn't made up my mind). I remember praying to Jesus and something inside of me completely let go. I looked her in the eyes and said "It's time for me to move on." .... What a shock to the both of us, especially me. Afterwards I realized that the feeling I had was me completely letting go of self. At that moment I gave my life completely to Jesus, and he did what was best for me.

Even though I miss the pharmacy a lot, I don't regret quitting one bit. The Lord has taken me on this incredible journey and has showed me and taught me things that just leave me speechless and in awe. Sometimes I am so overwhelmed with his joy and agape that I just break down in tears.


Heavenly Father, I am so thankful for you saving me and making me complete in Christ Jesus, your son. I know, because of Him, I am made holy and perfect in your sight. In Jesus precious name, Amen