Part Two

So, the second part of my story happened several months after I started fellowshipping with Matthewshouse. I remember really enjoying Thursday nights (that's when our group meets). Not absolutely sure why; just knowing that I always looked foward to that night. (In retrospect, I know it was the love of God, Agape love that is) So one day while I was at work (in a pharmacy) I was getting real agitated with everything; like I always did. I remember that it was cloudy all week long and this day was the same. Then the phone rang and since nobody answered it I figured I better (but whenever that happened I used to always get angry). I found myself in the front lobby checking on something for the patient and when I hung the phone up I did it with force. Then as I turned and looked out the front windows, the clouds seperated barely, right where the sun was located in the sky. And it seemed the clouds opened up just enough so only the sun could poke through, and even though we had tinted windows, it was so bright it blinded me. I got this feeling in my body that to this day I still can't explain. About ten minutes later I realized that it was God. At that time it was like his love blanketed me and I wanted to go and hug everybody that I was working with.

At that moment I knew that God WAS real and my relationship with Jesus had begun. Now I look back at that day and know that God had been trying to get my attention for many years but he also knew that that was the day that I would change and relize that he does exist. He also knew just exactly how to get my attention.


My dear Lord Jesus, I come to you now to be restored in you--to renew my place in you, my allegiance to you, and to receive from you all the grace and mercy I so desperately need this day. I honor you as my sovereign Lord, and I serrender every aspect of my life totally and completely to you. I give you my body as a living sacrifice; I give you my heart, soul mind and strength; and I give you my spirit as well. Amen
prayer arranged by John Eldredge