rainy days...

As I sit here in my room trying to defrost from the freezing cold that is outside my window, I can't help but be sad. I am definitly in a homesick state of mind that the rain isn't helping, and it is driving me crazy. For a good three and a half months I have been fine and now all of a sudden I have a strong urge to jump on a plane and go home. I have taken pride in the fact that I have been so tough and not missed home, but that is all going down the toilet today. In the last couple weeks I have researched plane tickets for the Thanksgiving break and to my dissapointment they were all way more than I could afford. But today in the library as I was trying to distract myself from doing work, I found some plane tickets for a little over $300... that is half of the price of the past searches I had conducted. So now I have a dilema... $300 is still more than I can afford, but it is definitly more obtainable; so do I go home or not? In my mind the answer was clear "go home" but as I think about it more rationally it seems as though there is a good argument for either case. If I go home now it is only like 3 more weeks before I go home for X-mas so would it be worth it? So then I find myself caught in a challenge because if I have waited almost four months to go home and visit can't I wait 3 weeks more and save myself a fortune? Oh the decisions... So this is where I simply turn to God and say "show me the money" No, just kidding, I really say "show me the answer" and now I wait. So God is teaching me not only that I really miss home, but he is once again reminding me to turn to Him for my decisions whether big or small...