College Life

College is such a funny place. It is a place that means so many things to different people. I am learning that for me it is a place to learn what its like to be "young" and with that comes so much more. While having been in college now for almost four full years, it is only now that I am truely expericencing "the college life". Don't get the wrong idea, I haven't all of a sudden become a girl gone wild, but I have discovered that it is ok to not be perfect all of the time. God has shown me that by my "trying to be perfect" attitude, I was unable to learn who I really am and what I really want. I have lived my life in a bubble and inside that bubble I have made assumptions about other people and their decisions. God is slowly popping my bubble and showing me that although people choose to do "unperfect" activities that those actitivies don't make up who they are. It has been a constant lesson of this through all the friends that I have made. Each person that I hang out with is so different and has so much to bring to the group of friends, and this has helped show me that it is boring to all be the same. Just because my friend chooses to do somthing different than I do doesn't make either of us right, it makes us who we are.
While this lesson I am learning is a good one, it can also be pretty draining. It is hard to feel like you are the only one that feels a certain way. This has been my struggle in the last few weeks. I have had to really rethink alot of my beliefs and decisions to see if they were really my own thinking or someone elses. The answer has been suprising but also enlightening...
God is one thing that I am always sure of and He hasn't let me down yet. On those days when I am just down in the dumps or feeling all alone he provides comfort in more ways than one. It is such a relief to know that God is looking out for me and knows what I need even before I need it. Last weekend I was starting to get really discouraged with my situation at school (friends, job, classes) and of course God knew what was going on, so He provided me with some quality time with two AMAZING friends! It was a beautiful day in New York and that only helped make the day even better. There is really no better feeling than hanging out with two people that you love so much and knowing that you don't have to impress them because they don't care what you do, they love you regardless. I am so thankful for Joy and Tom and the randomness that has placed us together on the East Coast. They have truely been an amazing support to me, whether they realize it or not, and I am so thankful for them and our quality time. God knows so much more than I ever give Him credit for, but he likes to remind me of His power in situations like these. It is just too random to not have been touched by the hand of God.