Ouch...

I'm forcing myself to write this down. Mostly because I want to look back at it and laugh someday. But I didn't make it to USC's grad school. I haven't been officially notified by mail yet. However, I insisted on knowing, so I kept sending emails to the administrative person in the grad office. The last two went like this. Me: "So, being that you have notified all the applicants who were accepted, and I was not notified, I'm assuming that I did not make it. Is this correct?" Them: "That is correct."

Ouch.

I halfway want to know the numbers: how many applicants? how many made it? what was the cut-off criteria? and other useless info. But now I feel that it would only be pouring calculated salt into an old measured-and-found-lacking wound.