(my heart during a connection)

By Jessica Evans - September 22, 2002

Woe to me the sadness and pittifulness that I have become.
God, what a miserable sight that my heart is molding and rotting into.
My faults are eating away at all that is good and light in my soul.
I ask for love, yet I do not love.
I ask for care, yet I am not caring.
I long to be nourished, yet what have I done to nourish others?
I want authenticity, yet I am not authentic.
I sit and stare and complain in my head about how disconected I feel, yet I have not put one piece of my vulnerable little heart on the table to let anyone feel connected to me.
So, as I stare in the mirror of faces in this group, I taste the failure that I have created for myself.æ

Jessica Evans
When is your birthday?
12-21-81
What do you do when youÍre not at work or school?
Hang out with my hubby, go to the gym, shop (don't tell Matt)
WhatÍs the latest film you saw?
Road to Perdition, sad but good
What music are you currently listening to?
Jason Mraz, Stavsacre, Santana
What is your favorite food?
Mexican or anything else hot enough to make your eyes water
WhatÍs the craziest thing youÍve ever done?
Married an Evans when I was 20.
Which historical figure would you like to have dinner with? Why?
Besides Jesus, I would like to have met Mary Magdalen and be inspired by her very real understanding of God's love and grace.
WhatÍs the worst concert youÍve ever been to?
Wreckingball!!!
What's your favorite color?
Red
What question should we have asked you? Answer it.
Q: What are you most passionate about outside of church?"
A: Teaching, because I love working with high school aged kids.æ I love the opportunity to get them more motivated about there future and teaching them the skills it takes to become more successful.