Sorry it has been so long since I have wrote. I can't belive that Carson is growing so fast. He will be 4 months old on the 8th. He just started playing in his Jeep, this time without his head falling forward into the steering wheel! I think he already wieghs 16 lbs. and is about 24 inches long. My arm gets tired holding him. (I think in an earlier blog I said he was 25, but that was a mistake.) Carson has rolled from his back to his stomach 3 times, but neither Dave or I have acutally seen him do it. He's a sneaky little guy! He smiles all the time now, but not for the camera, of course! Dave can get him to laugh a lot. It's really fun to watch the two of them. We also wanted to thank Kevyn and Cheryl for sending us the little bible with Carson's name on it and the dedication certificate. Thanks for thinking of it.
So, our lives has changed a lot the past few months. I think having Carson was the easy part. God is definitely trying to teach us something and we're trying to keep our hearts open to what that is. Sometimes I think it's patience because we haven't sold our house yet. Our realtor thinks this is the month, I hope he's really right. Or it could be we need to trust God more to provide for our needs. We didn't know this month how we were going to make both mortgage payments because Pfizer's "cost of living allowance" just ran out. Then, God stepped up and we FINALLY received our student loan and the refund check from our move 2 1/2 months ago. This reminded us of the book we read together where the pastor kept worrying about how he was going to pay his bills, but God always provided. Who's idea was it to read that book anyways!!! Sometimes I think God wants us to be more humble. I was always a saver because I wanted to be, but now when I don't have a choice it feels a little different. I have to take Carson to the health dept. for his shots because they're free and the last two times we've had family and friends stay they've brought us bags of food. Of course, it's been at the perfect time when we needed it, but it's not always easy to receive.
I feel like our life has changed so much, that sometimes both Dave and I wonder if we made the right decision in moving. Dave had a good job, with insurance, and I could've kept my job in Carlsbad to have some extra money, and Carson would be growing up with all of you!! But, I really think that God wanted to push us and take us out of our confort zone once again. I just didn't think it would be as hard as it is. This experience really says a lot about how big a part Matthew's House has played in our lives. Moving to Oceanside was actually really easy because you were there as friends as well as a church. God knew where we needed to be. Because God provided then, I thought this move would be just the same, maybe easier because we would be closer to our family. I thought that we'd find another church right away, make friends easy, and that Dave would enjoy school. I don't feel like any of these have happened yet and we've lived here almost 3 months. (Dave is struggling with his classes and is pretty discouraged) It took one week for us to get connected with Matthew's House why wouldn't God do the same here? I really do know that we are here for a reason and that God still knows where we need to be. Doing what God wants doesn't mean it's always the easy way, I've learned that for sure. We really are blessed and thank God for everything we do have. Pray that we will listen to what God us to learn. Thank you for playing such a big role in our lives, we really cherish the friendships that we have with all of you.
